This Is It

I honestly never really cared about you in the 1st place.when its all said n done Im releived.I've felt trapped for so long.I know that sounds stupid but I was afraid of being alone so I put up with ur shit.Im not saying its ALL your fault.but I mean I do blame you for making me feel the way have been because YOU ARE THE REASON WHY I FELT THE WAY I DID.now that I think about it I wud have much rather been alone that.Im one not to be afraid to put things out there on the internet because the ppl I speak about already know how I feel n damnit I can say what I want.what u gonna do fight me? mmmhmmm...I can sabatoge ppl I can go off n spazz but...I can honestly say I would try to hurt someone just as much as they hurt me.I dont look at this as an ending because nothing is over.I look at this as a new begining and a chance to re-invent myself n do whats best for me with out worrying about how the fuck YOU feel about it because I could care less.I stopped caring about what u think and how u feel for a min.U obviously have not did that but its ok u can continue to be the person who u wanna be without me in ur life n Im not gonna hold a grudge because ur no one to waste n e time thinking about.Ive say back n shook my head about the stuff going on and even though I was involved I was never trying to act innocent I admitted it even though ppl wanna try to make me look bad but as I always say "Dont try to throw someone under the bus when yall are attatched at the hip, NOT meaning if u and the person are SOO close...I mean if u and that person has done the same things DONT rat them out because ur ass will be going under that bus with them because u tryna get at niggas......I just took a deep breath and I think this is all I have to say about this and will speak of it no more......


(My pic doesnt mean "fuck you"..it just means fuck IT...fuck the whooole situation.its done n over wit)

TANISHA HERE :) ND ONCE AGAIN BLOGGIN ABOUT OMARION....BUT IN THIS BLOG,I WROTE ABOUT OMARION FOR THE "HOTTEST MALE R&B SINGER UNDER 30" CONTEST..U CAN REALLY SEE I LOVE OMARION AS A PERSON ND AN ARTIST AND I SPENT TIME ON THIS.I WANT HIM TO WIN :) EVEN IF HE DOESNT.SO WUT.WE ALL KNOW HOW GOOD HE IS....GO VOTE FOR HIM (theres a link i n the "hottest male singer under 30")

(PLEASE READ ALL OF IT...ITS LONG BUT ITS SO INTERESTING) I don’t just like Omarion. I LOVE Omarion. Omarion is SO NOT getting the recognition he deserves…People think that he can only sing and dance and those are not the only things he excels in. He can sing, RAP (you can hear this on his new song “Get it In” ft. Gucci Man), dance, produce, act, write music, play the guitar and the Piano...He can do back flips too lol.He should also be considered a mogul due to the production of his dance shoes the “OBOIS”. Although Omarion fans do not know him personally we can get a feel of him through his music, twitter and any other random videos he has on his YouTube channel (OSABADMOFO). We can tell he’s personable and most admirably of all…HUMBLE…Omarion is so determined and adventurous when it comes t to life. He wants to get everything accomplished as best as he can and pulling everyone he knows would be a good fit along for the ride. He was raised by a bunch of women so you KNOW he’s very sensitive towards females feelings. For as long as I can remember, for YEARS I’ve ALWAYS wanted Omarion to do a song with Lil Wayne. So when I got this SAY NOW message from Omarion on Feb 24,2 009 I remember him saying

stop w/e you’re doing right now and get to a computer, I have a surprise

I did EXACTLY that and went to his YouTube channel….it took him while for load it (lol) but when I saw the words “OMARION COMFORT ft Lil Wayne” I started smiling so hard because a whish of mines came true and I was one of the FIRST Omarion fans to hear it. I was definitely ecstatic. Seeing that made mi day 9I had a bad one) I think I started tearing up because I was so happy. I immediately started learning ALL the words to the song. I heard a lot of buzz about the song and people who never favored Omarion said that they loved it. On mi twitter I’m constantly tweeting about Omarion and his music telling people he’s coming back in a big and better way and people will be sorry if they miss out on the chance to hop on his new music. I even tweet about his old music like “Slow Dancing” Track #12 off of his 1st solo album “O”(I ALSO BOUGHT/READ OMARIONS BOOK “O”) and I tell people about this other song that I heard its called “Girl You Know” which is by YM ft Tyga and Omarion (I’m listening to it right now ).OMARIONS MOM IS ALSO FOLLOWING ME ON TWITTER.SHE IS SOOO COOL.I love talking to her when she’s on. I’m a genuine fan because I don’t even talK to her about Omarion UNLESS she says something about him first. I don’t want her to feel as if Im using her to try to talk to Omarion, that’s so not the case. Well,I know this is REALY long but I REALLY love Omarion and his music and everything he stands for. and I want to show it,I doubt there are many girls who actually sat down nd took the time out to type this much for and about their favorite artist.

SORRY FOR ANY TYPOS.UGH.I SUBMITTED TO MANY IN THE ACTUALY VOTING FOR OMARION.HOPE THEY DONT COUNT THAT LOL

OMARIONS OFFICIAL WORDS ON THE Y.M. SITUATION...

I TANISHA AS 1 OF OMARIONS ULTIMATE FANS I FEEL IM OBLIGATED TO SHOW THE WORLD THIS OR WELL,TYPE IT ALL UP FOR EVERYONE TO SEEE HIS WORDS AS A WHOLE...THESE ARE OMARIONS EXACT WORDS FROM HIS TWITTER ON THE Y.M. SITUATION>>>>





@1Omarion : What up tweep's good day.There's alot of people thinking i got dropped from Y.m that has never nor will ever b the kase I asked to b realeased,I didnt get dropped.I wish wayne and all of Y.m good luck for there future. There r no hard feelings,business is business and I made a decision that I felt was best for me. ALBUM 'OLLUSION' still koming video still koming really soon luv yall thanx for holdin me down!





WHETHER OR NOT U BELIEVE HIM OMARION HAS NO REASON SO LIE.HES ALWAYS BEEN TRUTHFUL TO HIS FANS AND HAS NOTHING TO HIDE.SO THE REST OF U DNT EVEN MATTER ALL HIS FANS KNOW AND LOVE HIM...NE WE KNOW HE APPRECIATES OUR SUPPORT...SO NOW ALL OF U CAN JUST SHHHH!ND BESIDES..WUT REASON DO THEY HAVE TO DROP HIS DOPE SELF??...IF HE WASNT THE SHIT THEY WUDNT HAVE SIGNED HIM IN THE 1ST PLACE...

Who Is She?

Tall, right about five nine
Wears glasses because she’s kind of blind
Brown eyes that are full and deep yet at the same time Hollow
Shes just Scoping and Hoping
for a better tomorrow
Brown skin which may not be the smoothest
But for sure is the toughest
Very emotional, that can be a good or bad thing
That all depends on you
Yes she’s caring
but She’s very daring
with her mouth
She usually knows what she’s talking about
Very outspoken and Interest cholking
Hates when people don’t use their common sense
It just doesn’t make any sense
Frequently often has visions of herself
Being the best and better that the rest
Of course she’s full of remorse
Not that confident
Usually has trouble staying on top of it
How is she so bold but insecure?
Nobody’s really sure

A Poem I wrote for class about The Bestiie Jordan :)

THE DOPEST GUY I KNOW

Ever since freshman year I wanted to get to know him
Right when I saw him at orientation.
He had me captivated
infatuated and agitated just wanting to know who he was
I wanted to walk through the valley of his mind.
Step the stairs of his knowledge.
Swim in the sea of his emotions.
Be apart of the shadows that slide across his brain.
I wanted to be close to him.
Wanted to be the one who knew most about him
Wanted to become his best friend
I wanted to have a friendship with this guy that could never end.
I know a lot of people who used to think he was bad.
But now they know him almost as well as I do, so they see who he really is
.He’s a real cool person.
He’s not perfect and that’s exactly
why I like him I’ve never
known anybody like this guy
I doubt I will find anyone else who’s persona will fly/strive/glide
above everyone else’s.
He’s selfless
Constantly pacing not chasing
After life
He has a no care attitude
He lives his life and doesn’t worry about problems
Even though he has many
He’s the sweetest person I know
He doesn’t deserve any type of pain
At least I don’t think so
When I heard the news. I cried for him
I didn’t know I cared about his feelings that much
I love him like a brother and he's always gonna come before everyother

....person lol

Its All So Weird...

Cordell..I met him on July-15th-2009...We were alreayd talking for a while nd I was starting to get this feelin that he was differemt from the rest of these guys like he said.... nd I believed him....We went to this pizza shop..but I didnt eat...then we went to the Library so I can return mi books.....after that we walked to the park nd sat on tyhe bench..I was shy so I wasnt speaking much...I started getting comfertable and we startd really talking ..



I asked him "Are u talking to n e other girls now besides me" he said "nah...after mi ex cheated on me I stopped caring about girls and having a relationship"...who wud have thought it was have been ME that he wud stop caring about...so then we reeally got ocmfertable and he was laying down in mi lap... we were holding hands (they were all laced up) nd it was nice..



I was thinking he Cud be my 1st BF..I had wrote this blog ((((its on here...called LOVE... this is how I see it..its mi 1st post..go read it :) ))) and I was telling him about the sutff that other guys have done to me and he was telling me hes gonna be diff and he can make me happy...FAIL!...so OBVIOUSLY....we were kissing..nd he started kissing,biting nd sucking on mi neck (shit felt maaad good lol....cuz fa me thats a super turn on)..



3 hours after we were first wit eachother..I had to go...so we were txting after he got home..nd the next day I txt'd him like normal..(cuz we used to talk everyday...days go by and he never aimed me back...called me back.wrote me back on myspace...or txted me back..I was like WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON??>..cuz like I said we talked everyday....but its a week already..then he FINALLY txted me back
...on monday he txted me saying "hey.I Been busy" nd I was like ok..so I txted him back and then once again for the rest of the day didnt even get a response...so then it becomes a week..nd at 11:24 pm (yes I remember the time) he txted me saying "Hey Kid" nd im like wtf..how I go from babe nd cutiie to KID?..I aksed him wth was going on and he said He just didnt feel like talking to females..nd i sent him a LOOONG ass txt tellin him how I felt about that..I was thinking he was going through something bad happend nd he just wanted to be alone....



i was worried that I was never gonna talk to him again nd I was said about that cuz like I said..he was diff..so then I asked him "did u find someone else to talk to?" and he told me no..but then he was like I know u got other guys to talk to..nd im like no i dnt..how wud u know that??..nd even if I did does he really think id be sittin here worrying about his ass for a week...nd he said he just knows..but he didnt know he hurt me that bad and he was just gonna back off before things got worse..nd im like wtf??...wth does he mean before things get worse??..wth is he talking about..thats wut pissed me off even more cuz idk where all this was coming from.....So me nd him hadnt talked since then because that was the last things he txted me..so right now all im thinking is fuck him..nd Im tight I wasted feeling on him when he was just acting retarded nd acting like such a fuckin ass hole......



WELL YEA.THATS IT....I THOUGHT HE WAS DIFF....SO BCUZ OF HIM..ND HOW HE FOOLED ME INTO BELIEVING HE WAS DIFF..IM NEVER GONNA PUT SO MUCH TRUST INTO GUYS AGAIN...THEY GONNA HAVE TO WORK THEIR WAY UP.

PAUL..ACKEEM..ND THIS NIGGA..FUCK ALL OF YALL....SERIOUSLY...

Survey about Love and Life

Love and Life Survey

How old were you when you had your first relationship?
Never had one b4

Are you taken/single?
Single

How old were you when you had your first kiss?
13 i think

What color is your underwear?
red

Do you like anyone right now?
sorta :)

Ever had your heartbroken?
umm...no

Miss anyone right now?
YEEEEESSSS I DOO..I WANNA TLAK TO HIM

Who was the last person you sent a text to?
My buddie Francis

Last person to text you?
Francis

Last person you saw?
Francis

What was the last thing you said to someone?
I didnt forget on purpose

Who is top in your top friends?
One of mi fav artist Tynisha Keli

Why?
i LOVE her music and i didnt think n e one needed to be there

Who do you trust the most in your life?
My best friend Jordan that i love so much

Who do you love most?
My bestfriend Jordan :)

Ever been in love?
NO

Who has hurt you the most?
Paul...

Has a tragedy ever happened in your life?
no

Are you happy?
Nope

How many good friends do you have?
ill just leave it at one..Jordan :)

Are there some songs you cant listen to because they remind you of someone?
no

Have you ever cheated on a partner?
Never been in a relationship to cheat

Ever been cheated on?
no

Ever been told someone loved you?
Yes

Ever told someone you loved them and meant it?
lmao NO

Ever had your heart broken?
how maby times u gonna ask this??.

Are you happy with where you are relationship-wise now?
not really cuz theres someone I really want..and i know he wants me..

What is your idea of true love?
Dell lol..if that ever happened

When they slip, do you think you can let go the small stuff?
yea,maybe

Do you believe in love at first sight?
no

Why or why not?
never experienced it so i cnt judge...

Do you believe that it is best to have a friendship first then love?
YES!! bcuz thats EXACTLY WHAT I WANT BEFORE I GO OUT WITH N E ONE

Do you believe that love can be found in bars or is that too much of a risk?
lol.uh idk..u can find love n e where..like twitter :)

Should people go to bars to find love?
no

Or should they go to places where people who like what they like hang out?
yes

Should men and women be expecting the other to buy the other gifts?
umm..honestly yes,expect but dnt demand..

Who should wear the pants in the relationship or should it be a mutual give and take?
defenatley mutual

Should chauvinists of either gender be in a relationship?
idk wth u talking about...

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