Its All So Weird...

Cordell..I met him on July-15th-2009...We were alreayd talking for a while nd I was starting to get this feelin that he was differemt from the rest of these guys like he said.... nd I believed him....We went to this pizza shop..but I didnt eat...then we went to the Library so I can return mi books.....after that we walked to the park nd sat on tyhe bench..I was shy so I wasnt speaking much...I started getting comfertable and we startd really talking ..



I asked him "Are u talking to n e other girls now besides me" he said "nah...after mi ex cheated on me I stopped caring about girls and having a relationship"...who wud have thought it was have been ME that he wud stop caring about...so then we reeally got ocmfertable and he was laying down in mi lap... we were holding hands (they were all laced up) nd it was nice..



I was thinking he Cud be my 1st BF..I had wrote this blog ((((its on here...called LOVE... this is how I see it..its mi 1st post..go read it :) ))) and I was telling him about the sutff that other guys have done to me and he was telling me hes gonna be diff and he can make me happy...FAIL!...so OBVIOUSLY....we were kissing..nd he started kissing,biting nd sucking on mi neck (shit felt maaad good lol....cuz fa me thats a super turn on)..



3 hours after we were first wit eachother..I had to go...so we were txting after he got home..nd the next day I txt'd him like normal..(cuz we used to talk everyday...days go by and he never aimed me back...called me back.wrote me back on myspace...or txted me back..I was like WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON??>..cuz like I said we talked everyday....but its a week already..then he FINALLY txted me back
...on monday he txted me saying "hey.I Been busy" nd I was like ok..so I txted him back and then once again for the rest of the day didnt even get a response...so then it becomes a week..nd at 11:24 pm (yes I remember the time) he txted me saying "Hey Kid" nd im like wtf..how I go from babe nd cutiie to KID?..I aksed him wth was going on and he said He just didnt feel like talking to females..nd i sent him a LOOONG ass txt tellin him how I felt about that..I was thinking he was going through something bad happend nd he just wanted to be alone....



i was worried that I was never gonna talk to him again nd I was said about that cuz like I said..he was diff..so then I asked him "did u find someone else to talk to?" and he told me no..but then he was like I know u got other guys to talk to..nd im like no i dnt..how wud u know that??..nd even if I did does he really think id be sittin here worrying about his ass for a week...nd he said he just knows..but he didnt know he hurt me that bad and he was just gonna back off before things got worse..nd im like wtf??...wth does he mean before things get worse??..wth is he talking about..thats wut pissed me off even more cuz idk where all this was coming from.....So me nd him hadnt talked since then because that was the last things he txted me..so right now all im thinking is fuck him..nd Im tight I wasted feeling on him when he was just acting retarded nd acting like such a fuckin ass hole......



WELL YEA.THATS IT....I THOUGHT HE WAS DIFF....SO BCUZ OF HIM..ND HOW HE FOOLED ME INTO BELIEVING HE WAS DIFF..IM NEVER GONNA PUT SO MUCH TRUST INTO GUYS AGAIN...THEY GONNA HAVE TO WORK THEIR WAY UP.

PAUL..ACKEEM..ND THIS NIGGA..FUCK ALL OF YALL....SERIOUSLY...